Femininity with Feeling.
It was one of many long and cloudy days in Manchester during the lockdown, I was pacing around the back garden and whacking the fence with a large broken branch I found on the ground, roaring like a wild animal. My monthly moon cycle was on it's way.
During the later months of 2020, I began to notice an intense shift in my monthly cycle. As each moon passed, my cycle was growing more painful both physically and psychologically. Some months, I could experience 2 weeks of downwards spiralling energy which would begin with a very obvious and abrupt dip in my hormones. Heightened anxiety, interrupted sleep, and a low mood, sometimes for half of the month!
I began speaking to my girlfriends about this, only to find that many of them were experiencing something similar. Could this be a collective processing of the trauma that the world was facing, I wondered.
Whatever it was, it was out of balance and I knew something needed to shift.
On the 31st of December 2020, I brought in the New Year writhing around in pain from my period cramps, crying intensely, and experiencing waves of panic attacks alone and in bed. The panic attacks came in the form of flashbacks about the death of my little brother when I was 13. Jamie was 5, and died in a freak accident while we were on holiday in Tenerife.
At first, I couldn't understand why this memory was vividly haunting me so many years later, seemingly out of the blue. In the following days, as I bled and reflected, I made the decision that I would seek some therapy sessions to explore this experience further.
That was the first time that I can recollect allowing myself to be guided by my moon cycle. I began to pay attention to what she had to tell me; to what she was trying to show me. From then on, I learnt to follow her guidance and take the necessary steps to rebalance whatever imbalance is effecting me at a given time.
Fast forward one year, once again I am lay in bed, at the beginning of my cycle, a couple of days before New Year's Eve, 2021. This time, although my sensations are still intense, I have a completely different approach, a fresh mindset. I lay there, listening to one of my favourite albums, consciously receiving new creative ideas and making notes eagerly as each one landed in my awareness.
Our monthly moon cycle is a sacred opportunity for deep connection and spiritual insight.
Insight. Inwards Sight.
If we are able to shift the learnt narratives and release the outdated beliefs about menstruation, this can become such an empowering experience of femininity where we tap into self-sourced stability and open ourselves to creative energy.
What would happen if you no longer considered your menstruation to be a burden?
How would your life look if you were able to structure your time around the peaks and valleys of energy levels throughout your cycle?
Where would the world be if women everywhere began to recognise the power of their receptive creativity?
If, like me, you are passionate about manifesting a life of abundance and overflow, both for yourself, and for the world around you, it is essential to reestablish your connection to creative energy.
Abundance is creative energy in manifested form.
Only when you remove your barriers, and allow the river of source energy to flow towards you, can you begin to shape and give form to that energy.
In other words, you cannot create the life you envision externally, until you have established that very same creative vision internally.
You have to feel it, fully. This isn't a new idea. The very essence of femininity is the ability to truly feel and from that feeling create, manifest, give life.
Allow my words to be absorbed as you read this because I promise you, the woman who walks the path through darkness and is able to receive the insight it offers, is the same woman who elevates into greatness.
I know you have that woman inside of you and calling her forth isn't just for your benefit, she has the power to save the entire world.
So, I will end with some more lyrics from Lizzy Jeff and remind you to Speak life, give thanks, stay dedicated to ascension!
Keep up the momentum,
So much love, genuinely.
Ciara Nicole X
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